Thursday, November 25, 2010

Happy Thanksgiving

Today is Thanksgiving and we have so much to be thankful for! Most importantly I am thankful for the Lord. He has always provided for us even when life's blows make it seem like we've lost everything. As weird as it sounds 2010 has not only been the worst year we've had but the BEST one. For every moment something horrible has happened something incredibly amazing has happened shortly after.

Every night I thank God that we at least have a roof over our head, food on our table, and my husband has a job that provides for us. I think these are things a lot of people take for granted but these are things so many families don't even have. I am thankful for the husband I take for granted, who really is an amazing father and I don't give him enough credit. I am thankful for my babies who brighten my life and give it meaning and purpose.

I think that we all should stop and think about what we're blessed with everyday, not just on Thanksgiving. No matter how grim things are at the moment, there is always something to be thankful for.. even if it's just the simple fact that you're alive. The little things really are the most important. I asked Kassidy the other day what she was thankful for. She said "good hands", me too! Happy Thanksgiving!

Sunday, November 21, 2010

i didn't have an autistic child to irritate you.. promise

Alright I need to get something off my chest here and I apologize in advance if I end up dropping any f-bombs. I totally understand that some people aren't comfortable hearing the "A" word especially when it comes to a family member. Hell, I know of parents with Autistic children themselves and they're even in denial. I don't have time to be in denial and I don't have time to throw a pity party. Every single second of my day is a battle. A battle because I poured the wrong brand of chocolate milk or a battle because I drew a 4 with an open top and not a pointy one.

There is a certain family member.. two in fact that instead of being supportive and accepting Kassidy's diagnosis they have instead been taking it out on us. I don't have many requests when it comes to other people and my children. I think it's pretty reasonable that all I ask is let ME discipline MY children and don't yell at them. Autism aside, no one needs to be yelling at someone else's children. After multiple times of telling them they should just let us be the parents, I suggested that perhaps they do some research and see why I say not to yell at her. They agreed. Apparently this made things worse. Said family member took my husband aside and said that Kassidy does not have Autism. It's basically my fault for everything that's "wrong" with her and they don't want to hear anymore about her appointments.

I'm disgusted. Said family member is not a doctor and I highly doubt they know more than the now 4 specialists and doctors that all agree on her diagnosis. How stupid of me to assume that family should be nothing but supportive. I think it's incredibly sick that someone even could suggest that I would make this up. Because everyone wants something "wrong" with their child. Because I totally enjoy being screamed at and hit all day long because I put the right boot on first instead of the left. I don't care if you agree with the diagnosis, because frankly your head must be in the clouds all day to not see what's right before your eyes, but how dare you treat my baby horribly and imply this is my fault. It does not make me a bad mother because I talk to her through her meltdowns instead of scream at her like you'd like. It does not make me a bad mother because I take her to doctors appointments multiple times a week. And no, I didn't "make her Autistic" for attention or to make you mad. I'm incredibly thankful for those that have been nothing but supportive of Kassidy and I will forever be grateful for them. Those two people, however, should be ashamed of themselves.

Saturday, November 6, 2010

birthday parties and my stress level do not mix

One part of growing up is having and going to birthday parties. I'm sure for most parents and children this is a pleasant experience. I absolutely dread birthday parties. The older my child gets and the older the children hosting parties get, the more I dread it.

Let me just share what happened today and at another party that was a few weeks ago, then I'll come back to my original point. A few weeks ago we were at a party and obviously there were balloons everywhere for the kids to play with. Kassidy has a thing for red balloons, and only red ones. Of course out of maybe 10 balloons available there was only one red one in the entire room. Apparently a little boy kept fighting her for this red balloon. It wasn't that he just wanted the red balloon, he was collecting them. His mother actually insisted Kassidy give up her one red balloon to add to her sons collection. Now don't get me wrong, I have no problem with encouraging her to share but why should she give up her ONLY balloon to add to his 7? I ended up having to leave that party early because my husband had to go to work soon. For days all I heard about was that red balloon. On the drive home she screamed for it. Before she went to bed she'd cry for it. The next day we even went out and bought her a $10 Dora balloon. Yeah.. it wasn't that red one and she disregarded it.

Fast forward to today. Kassidy understands birthday parties. She knows that you sing happy birthday, blow out candles, eat cake, and open presents. What she does not understand is everyone gets a birthday, not just her. As long as she doesn't start screaming on the floor in displeasure that she isn't blowing out the candles I consider it a good day. Kassidy made a comment that it wasn't fair because she wanted to blow out the candles. She was quiet when she said it and with all the kids cheering that the birthday boy blew them out I figured no one even heard her. Another mother then turns to my daughter and rudely says "when it is your birthday you can blow out the candles, but it's not." Lady, I don't know you and you sure don't know my daughter and you have no right to reprimand her and make her upset. When it got time for the birthday boy to open presents all the other kids sat in front of him and waited anxiously to see what he had received. Kassidy was playing by herself in the jump house instead. This same mother was giving me dirty looks because apparently it must be rude that Kassidy wasn't sitting with the other kids watching him open gifts.

Now back to my point. Kassidy's almost 4 and a half. She's getting old enough where her behavior can't just be shrugged off as age and other people think she's being rude when she doesn't answer their questions or do as the other kids are doing or my favorite, not wanting to leave the jump house when it's time to leave and hysterically screaming. Do I come out and tell some random stranger "Hey she's Autistic watch how you speak to her!" No. I don't know how other moms of Autistic children handle these situations but I don't feel it's any of the strangers business. I don't think it's acceptable for a grown woman to judge my child because she wants a red balloon, or because she wants to play by herself instead of watching someone open gifts. Perhaps it's wrong of me to assume that people should only discipline their own children instead of ones they've never even met before. Who knows. All I know, is the more parties we go to the more I dislike them. Why do I go? Because she has a good time, and whether some random mother likes my child's actions or not, I'm not going to deprive my daughter from the only socialization she actually enjoys, even if she's not doing it "correctly".